Life was going amazing, and I was making a lot of friends and I was helping out my family with my sick brother. Later on when my 6th grade school year started along with my 2018/2019 season. I was noticing that I had a lot of stress and I had a lot going on in my life. I had a lot of homework that would pile up along with my brother being very sick. A few months earlier I noticed I was not the same person that I use to be. I was very moody and I would stop hanging out with friends and spending time with my family. I also was getting in a lot of trouble and I just didn't feel like myself. I didn't have any energy to do anything and all I wanted to do was just lay around and be alone. I tried to solve the problem by self by eating better foods, going to bed earlier, and surrounding myself with my family members. After many weeks it still seemed to not work and I was still that person. I noticed I was not performing my best academically and athletically. I was searching by myself for answers and I always kept this feeling away from my family and my friends. I was embarrassed to tell people how I felt, and I was afraid if I told my friends they wouldn't look at me the same. Hockey was the only thing that took away 100% of my pain at the time and that was only a hour a week. I needed 24 hours a week and I was searching for more answers while coming up with nothing. About a month after the season ended my feelings were getting very high and I started to form suicidal thoughts. It only got worse and my summer had began and I always would have a smile on my face. My birthday was coming and I always loved having a party but this year was different. I didn't want to be with anyone and I only wanted to spend time in my room or in a room alone. This started to frustrate me because I needed to see my friends and I need to go to the rink to play. I just never had the urge. Another month passed along with more suicidal thoughts and my depression. One day I just decided that this wasn't healthy and this wasn't the life style I wanted so I decided that I would confront my parents about my feelings and that I wanted them to go away and I needed someone to talk too. About four months had passed and I started to feel like myself again. The school year had started and I was happy and always had a smile on my face. I was making more friends and I was succeeding very much in hockey. Christmas break came around and I still went to counseling and it only got better from there. During the season we attended more and more tournaments and many games and it only boosted my energy and my will to do things. Still to this day I only regret making the decision to hide it from my family and friends because they only were open and helped me through this. Still to this day I talk to someone about my feelings and I'm the happy Aidan I was before. I have so much energy and my will to do things is crazy. I took control of my depression and kids in this world should too and this is a way to help them succeed and overcome their past.
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